falling in love ~

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I fell in love with myself

“We do not believe in ourselves

until someone reveals that deep inside us something is valuable,

worth listening to, worthy of our trust, sacred to our touch.

Once we believe in ourselves we can risk

curiosity, wonder, spontaneous delight

or any experience that reveals the human spirit.”

~ e.e. cummings

I started a couple of days ago with the practice of affectionate perception in every situation I was in. I felt that I was not only blessing every person I met with the energy of affection but every situation and every movement I made.

The quality of this perception is the energy of complete acceptance , combined with an attitude of warmth and approval. Not approval as in a sense of denial of some movement or behavior that I recognize as disruptive or destructive but simply seeing it as “what is” and “approving of” the fact that existence is showing itself “like this right now.” In other words, I have no resistance to or judgment of what is observed. I have a sense of melding with what I observe. It is observation -- becoming one with -- what is observed and there is an embracing of it, like a mother holding a child close to her bosom. It is an owning of all I encounter as “me.” And thus there is no disapproval: “This is not as it should be, not what I want.”

Affectionate perception is always in the now moment, because it is based in the direct perception of what is happening. There is a focus of observation that excludes thoughts of anything that is not here, now. This observation sharpens as I begin to sense a strong interest in what I perceive. It is as if I am using this energy as my light beam, like a flashlight in a dark room revealing what is in the space. Affectionate perception reveals to me the world in a never-before-seen way.

Affectionate perception originates in me. I understand there is an energy called “love” that I am the source of. Affectionate perception is a way of looking upon anything with love. Consciously looking at the world with this love affects the world as I look upon it. Affectionate perception perseveres in beaming affection, acceptance, compassion and caring, even in the face of a world that appears to be unreceptive or unresponsive to this form of love energy.

It is deeply empowering to be active in this way, as I am exercising my innate ability to choose willfully how I want to interface with manifested, physical reality. The focused attention that goes hand in hand with affectionate perception gives me the feedback that I am affecting my world directly. I see people’s faces soften, their eyes twinkle and their voices and actions mellow. Of course, I also take in the perception of those who are in such suffering or discomfort that they seemingly are not receptive of this energy from me. Then, compassion lights up in me and my heart opens even more, sending to them what I can to soothe their hurt.

This understanding led to yesterday’s experience of the pure energy of observation.

When observation is free of prejudice, preference or value judgments of any kind, then its quality is as a beam of light of pure awareness. It is as if awareness is closing the circuit of energy flow between the expressions of consciousness as Source-in-form and itself as the observer. Then the two merge and meld. The observer is no longer separate from the observed. This happens spontaneously, as one focuses on pure observation, pure direct perception. Here, too, there is no space for thoughts of yesterday or tomorrow. No space for regrets or hopes. All energy is focused in this present moment, in this place here. This focus is not concentration or effort but rather like a child fascinated by a bug crawling in the grass. The child enters into the bug’s world, in which blades of grass are tall trees. Due to his interest in taking in the newness and freshness of the bug’s world, the child’s attention is naturally drawn there. And so, I am enthralled with the freshness and aliveness I perceive; this experience is me as the experience of the world. Yet, I am the subject, together with all around me and I set the tone, the frequency: all is good; all is life; all is caring; all is love.

Today my focus is drawn to my closest world – me. I am pulled into (willingly) the world of my 70 Trillion cells I call “me.” I feel the weight of each foot on the ground, of my limbs as I move about, of my thoughts and images, of each breath. Then something wonderful happens: I am good. I am more than good; I am amazing, magnificent and that feeling includes every little ache and pain, every discomfort I sense, as I begin to move after the night’s rest. I am in love with myself! Yes, this is the basic taboo, the spell we succumb to at some point during childhood: you should not – you dare not – love yourself. That is bad!

What a joy to unreservedly and uninhibitedly fall in love with myself, with all I am, physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. To meld with my own beingness and finally enjoy my self! With this experience of my closest world as something exquisitely delightful, I move and connect with – merge with – other spheres of this one being in the correct frequency. Now, all makes sense and there is a supreme order to everything, which has its foundation in me. I have discovered the order, the falling-into-place of heretofore disjointed elements of myself. Now I am whole, not through any action or change of behavior but through right seeing of what is and has always been. I was merely blinded by the error in my own self-perception. By giving my whole attention to this distortion of “seeing,” it is released and seeing is clear once again. And the clearing of seeing, through pure observation, is a way of life that calls for perpetual diligence. Some call it meditation. Some call it bliss. Some call it Oneness. Some call it Love.

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no sin, no guilt, no retribution

"In the end you know

that there is no sin, no guilt, no retribution,

only life in its endless transformations.

With the dissolution of the personal 'I',

personal suffering disappears.

What remains is the great sadness of compassion,

the horror of the unnecessary pain."

~ Nisargadatta

I like the simile of the simple light bulb. Of course, keep in mind that a light bulb is not actually all that simple and it is the result of complex thought by many over considerable time. Being mindful of what it took in the development of humanity on this planet to have all of the materials for a light bulb available and then to have the understanding of how it could function in order to produce light, it is quite remarkable and wonderful.

The simile I use is to see the light bulb as an inanimate object that 'comes alive' when the electrical current flows through it. The older ones I grew up with are the incandescent bulbs that give off light because a fine wire filament creates resistance to the flow of electrical energy and thus heats up and glows brightly. Similarly, our body-mind-spirit complexes that are based in the physical body, experience Source energy flowing through them and thus they come alive and 'light up'. Seen in this context our lives actually consist of Source energy flowing through inert objects that create resistance to this flow and thus appear to 'come alive', to move, speak, think and, to some degree or the other, 'light up'.

We, as Source energy, are enthralled and fascinated by these 'objects' of our own creation that now appear to be 'alive', like children at Christmas playing with the remote control of a new battery-run dump-truck or locomotive. We actually lose track of the fact that we are actually the energy flow Itself, and not the object that is moved by It. We feel ourselves as the objects, the body-mind-spirit complexes. Wow, amazing! To feel ourselves as actually being the creations of our own 'hands'. Like the artist who, through magic, slips into the painting and lives in the paint-world portrayed on the canvas.

Now, back to the light bulb: at some point the fine wire filament has been heating up and glowing for many, many hours and it becomes brittle. One more burst of energy comes through and "ping"! it snaps, no longer able to sustain the flow of the current. We say then that "the person has died".  The current (Source energy) doesn't mind at all. As soon as the cosmic janitor comes and screws in another fresh, young light bulb, It begins to flow again and the bulb comes alive - the baby's heart beats and then it breathes, talks, thinks and loves.

Now we come to the most fascinating part: the Source energy carries in It all impressions of all "lives" lived by all forms that It has animated throughout all of "time". Each new form that takes on "life" has the capacity to consciously connect with any or all of these impressions. It is a vast data bank that every aspect of Source energy has access to. Which data I connect with depends on my individual propensities and depends on how far I have developed my ability to be sensitive enough to receive the subtle transmissions from the Great Server in the Sky. When this perspective dawns in a person, we say that person has transcended the personal 'I', and personal suffering disappears. It then becomes painfully clear that all suffering is due, simply, to a fatal error in perception of what is real, and what is just a form that is a vehicle for that which is real.

Now all of this is not a linear process and each of 'us' has a highly individual configuration of our body-mind-spirit complex, and that is to be taken literally: it is "complex"! Therefore, I, as one of the cosmic "workstations", will be supported in my functioning by some memories of another 'life', and may very well have the sense that I am connecting with "my past life". Indeed, I am, but the question remains, "who am I"? and thus, what is "mine"? Realizing that I am actually Source appearing in a multiplicity of forms, yes, indeed, all lives are "mine". Of significance is that I relate to the lessons such a memory can impart to me and live that lesson so that I may function more smoothly and thus experience more joy.

It is also my experience that the non-linearity of this process expresses itself as "me" being in a state of consciousness that has transcended the personal "I" to a high degree for quite a while, and then, moments later, I find myself again in a state of consciousness that is characterized by the sense of limitation and suffering as a personal "I". If I can follow the advice of the ancient wisdom texts and, as Matt Kahn says, "Whatever arises, love that", suffering dissipates and I once again find myself as Source consciousness experiencing life in its "endless transformations", and am able to gratefully join in the dance of Life. See you There!

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mind in love

'With a few flowers in my garden, half a dozen pictures and some books, I live without envy.' ~ Lope de Vega :: Art by Bonnie Joy Bardos

A mind that is in Love is a smiling mind; it is happy and feels buoyant, cheerful and playful. When in Love, the quality of its seeing is full of affection for everything in its field of perception. The cloak of heavy, dark or broken thoughts is dissipated.


Like the sun burning off the fog, Love clears all congested feelings and thoughts. Where does this Love come from when I am not feeling It right at this moment in my life? It comes from nowhere, which is a good thing because that shows me that It isn’t dependent on any circumstance or condition. If there were a formula that would always work, It would be limited. However, It is unlimited and a mystery, therefore whatever I do is not enough, and yet it may be enough. Grace means a blessing that comes from nowhere. All I can do is be ready and open at all times. I can refrain from that which closes me down. Easier said then done, but that is the practice for me.

“It comes out of me” is one way of putting it. That means It is always available since I am always here. It is a force that I feel when I put my attention on It. How does it happen that I all of the sudden put my attention on It? I think that is because It wants me to look at It, so It can see, can feel Itself.

I must be ready to drop everything, all past impression and thoughts and feelings at any moment. That it the practice: ending. Good luck!

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upon becoming invisible I love

(Ginny Ruffner - The Bowl from the Garden of Ideas)

upon becoming invisible

the invisible shows Itself - only that

 slakes my thirst.

i must drop all points of reference

all identity, all characteristics,

all carry-overs of 'me',

all that i want, i prefer, i am,

and yet be infinitely gentle

to my self, this tender creature

that moves and is moved

by its characteristics, its personality

its peculiarities, desires, needs and wants

imperfections, instabilities, inconsistencies.

still, upon becoming invisible

i merge with Mystery

and

there I see You.

I am here to see You,

and you let Me see You and

you give me permission to see you

your imperfections, your shortcomings

your humanness, your fallibility,

your vulnerability and fickleness,

and there I see You

Mystery unveiled.

I am here so that I can see me

in you, as You as Me.

the realms merge,

the visible with the subtle.

You are my Love.

I can only love You as you

because as you drop your veils

and show yourself as you

and Me as me.

we are visible in all our messiness

trying so hard to be clean and clear

patient compassionate understanding

 tender gentle loving

so that I see the Invisible in you

and then I see You.

That is why I am Here

to Love You Mystery unveiled.

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23 Qualities of Love – A 23 Day Meditation

I have compiled here 23 recent Tweets by Omnipresent Love ‏@evolvewithlove

I have printed them and have them at my bedside as a daily meditation, taking one a day for the next 23 days:

1. Love is an out of the ego experience ♥
2. Love is innocent. Love yourself unconditionally and return to innocence ♥
3. The lens of perception is cleansed by love ♥
4. A soul in pain is homesick for Love ♥
5. Love is the eternal sun shining beyond the clouds of human illusion and confusion ♥
6. Consciousness is inseparable from energy and energy cannot be destroyed. You are eternal and your essence is Love ♥
7. Courage comes naturally to one who loves ♥
8. Have the courage to love yourself. Unburden your heart and open your mind to the realization of your true identity and unity with all life ♥
9. The world is changed for the better by those who dare to love ♥
10. I am not my body. I am not my race. I am not my beliefs. I AM the individualization of Eternal Omnipresent Love ♥
11. We are illumined in the light of Love. We are empowered in the flow of Love. We evolve when we create with Love
12. To love is to be free for there is nothing blocking the flow of our true nature
13. Each one of us is an intrinsic facet of the omnipresence of Infinite Love
14. Love creates to evolve. Love creates from what it is. Life is the creative flow of Love
15. I followed my ego and got lost. I followed my heart and came home ♥
16. Love cannot be made. Love flows naturally from the heart and the heart is forever one with Infinite Love ♥
17. Hatred pollutes. Love transmutes ♥
18. We forget our origin and destiny when we lose sight of Love ♥
19. Love is expansive. When you give from your heart you grow ♥
20. Pride forms barriers. Love dissolves boundaries ♥
21. Be mindful of your heart and you will open the door to wisdom ♥
22. Love is the fire of the heart, the light of awareness and the energy of life ♥
23. What seems courageous to the mind is simply natural to the heart ♥

Love to Be

This Love to Be is showing me every little thing I see

Sugar coated in dazzling sparkling rainbow shine

Every thought as well – how strange – like dancing elves

Showing me what my Love to Be is today, right now!

Twinkle-toes tippling along across my mind's meadows

Now all covered in blue-bells – (just yesterday they were gray)

So let us revel in this shower of goodness that we all are harvesting

Like so many whales waltzing to the sun’s new melody!

“Here we are together with our Dear, Dear, Sweet Gaia

To enjoy our Self!”

This song sung by every flower, grain of sand, bug on the bark

And old man in the park is echoing out through the Universes

Lighting up the space between the galaxies

With our Love to Be!

Let’s listen to our song that we sing now to each other

When we say “Good Morning?” “How are You today!”

Yes, I’m better than fine! This is all Mine, and I will cherish it

Forever more!

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How to Find Love in One Easy Step

How to Find Love in One Easy Step

Source

We need the eyes of Love

To really see what is in front of us.

All the time It is here

Right in our Face.

The Face of Love all around us.

Everywhere we look it really is

Looking into that Face.

Nothing but Love.

So why? We ask, don’t we see it all the time?

I cannot say why, but it is so.

How can we know this, too?

I cannot say how, but you can.

Your words are riddles…

Yes, only by solving the riddle can you see what I see.

Who is this speaking, anyway?

I cannot say, but you can hear me if you listen

With your very, very fine ear of spirit.

This is the One step.

Not always easy, but it can be:

Let go if for just this moment

Of all that is filling your senses.

Have nothing between you and Existence.

“Renounce the need for the next moment” *

Then in that clear, fine and pure Space,

Ask again your question.

Is your question “Who am I?”

Than ask it.

Is your question “What is Love?”

Than ask it.

Is your question “Why am I here?”

Than ask it.

Is your question “What is the meaning of Life?”

Then ask it.

Whatever question, there is only One answer

Because there is really only One question.

The question and the answer are One.

Asking your Question

deeply in that special place

That is only yours,

You enter into the Quest.

The Quest is your question and the answer:

Be earnest in your Quest,

Your deep yearning to enter behind the veil

Of what you have come to know as your world.

This earnest is itself the energy that leads you to what you yearn for,

What your soul needs to know

So that it is complete and whole.

It is only one Step because there really is no process

Or causality to finding the answer to this riddle.

“The first step is the last step.”**

Just let go of all you see that is not Love,

Like the dog sniffing for his Master’s scent:

He won’t go off on any other track

Until he connects with that Scent.

Then he is on it

And doesn’t let go until he is together again.

So look through the Eyes of Love

That see everywhere Love, no matter how disguised It is,

Hidden from the material eyes of this world.

Peel off those eyes and look again

With the innocent and trusting eyes - your first eyes.

You still have them.

They see Love.

*Eckhart Tolle

** Krishnamurti

Belly Full of Tears

Light Opening

Take this belly full of tears

Let them rain down and water our dreams

Releasing the pain, the fear, the sadness

Let them drain away into the rivers of love

That are filling the dark valleys in our hearts

Feel how these tears come gushing forth

To wash away the past

For we have seen the folly of our ways

The hurt we have caused

And we hear the Voice from on high:

“Enough!”

Yes, we are the Masters of our Destiny

And we say NOW:

“PEACE ON EARTH TO ALL BEINGS OF GOOD WILL”

Clouds Dissipating

Unconditional Love

Light Baby (source unknown)

All Voices are my Self speaking to me

Mind creates all forms desired by Itself to show Itself to Itself

Myriad entities stand at the ready in my mind’s Eye

To appear and give voice to that which “I” desires to hear

In order to better see and understand Itself

What Love! to bring any form into Being that is desired needed wanted!

Asked for, yearned for, even before any word sprouts in the depths

I will hear and see that Word made flesh

Over and over and over

Whether I am ready to receive it or not

This Love Heart that is all that is

Keeps on cranking out more and more of Itself without reserve

Generous is such a trivial concept compared to this outpouring

Reckless Abandon!

Then the Organ of Perception that we and all forms are

Begins to piece together the picture to connect the pixel dots

! ! ! THIS IS I ! ! ! THIS WE ARE ! ! ! YOU ARE THAT ! ! ! I AM THAT ! ! !

T A T   T W A M   A S I

Once I felt the small child that felt the cutting whip of the harsh word the disapproving look the judgment the repulsion the cold shoulder oh so cold

I felt it from inside – I was the child defenseless innocent open fresh tender

Like the first sprouting green of the simple weed trampled by the hard heel

Callouses grew and grew thicker blocking the Light from Inside and Within

The first few years did the trick I was deaf and dumb for Self’s Love

Callouses covered my senses ears tongue eyes fingertips taste made bitter

At eighteen years rebellion –

"DON'T TAKE THAT IT WILL LEAD YOU TO DAMNATION AND RUIN" 

That was my code: 

I took it Lysergic Acid Diethylamide Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds

20–30 µg (micrograms) barely an energetic signature in the world of matter

Catapulted me outside of the veil of the dusty calloused tired world of despair

I looked around and noticed the sense of me the individual with biography and name

Gone gone far far far gone Om Gate Gate, Paragate, Parasamgate, Bodhi Svaha!

All was embracing Itself as All Breathing ItSelf as All Seeing only Itself with Deep Love

Never-ending Love fathomless Love without reason without cause or conditions

Forty-Four years ago that was and started the odyssey of the heart to the Heart

Finding traces of my Self like fluorescent specks along the path of life

Sometimes covered with grime in the gutter

and yet still shining glinting in the rays of Sunlight or Streetlight

showing me the Way back to that child’s world

untouched opening like the petals of the rose covered with fine dewdrop diamonds

Now I am touched again by that energetic that signature of Love

no this time around no chemical catalyst just Life’s Urgent Call: Change NOW!

Who is the Master of My Destiny the Master of my Words Feelings Thoughts Actions?

Who is responsible for war peace hate love?

NOW NOW and NOW die to the past

WAKE UP to this NOW of LOVE

It’s what you want your deepest desire most secret secret fondest cherished dream

I take this in this voice of Mine

I rest in quietude in peace in knowing

I let this energetic transform strike into my core my cells my genes

This is who I am how I am NOW

See that child vulnerable everywhere in each ones eyes

Be kind whenever possible it is always possible said His Holiness

11/11/2012 Arizona Beach Retreat

Krishnamurti: Passion Without Motive – What is Love Part Two

Krishnamurti: Passion Without Motive – What is Love Part Two

So when you ask what love is, you may be too frightened to see the answer. It may mean complete upheaval; it may break up the family; you may discover that you do not love your wife or husband or children—do you?—you may have to shatter the house you have built, you may never go back to the temple.

But if you still want to find out, you will see that fear is not love, dependence is not love, jealousy is not love, possessiveness and domination are not love, responsibility and duty are not love, self-pity is not love, the agony of not being loved is not love, love is not the opposite of hate any more than humility is the opposite of vanity.

So if you eliminate all these, not by forcing them but by washing them away as the rain washes the dust of many days from a leaf, then perhaps you will come upon this strange flower, which man always hungers after.

If you have not got love—not just in little drops but in abundance—if you are not filled with it, the world will go to disaster. You know intellectually that the unity of mankind is essential and that love is the only way, but who is going to teach you how to love?

Will any authority, any method, any system, tell you how to love? If anyone tells you, it is not love. Can you say, “I will practice love. I will sit down day after day and think about it. I will practice being kind and gentle and force myself to pay attention to others”?

Do you mean that you can discipline yourself to love, exercise the will to love? When you exercise discipline and will to love, love goes out the window. By practicing some method or system of loving you may become extraordinarily clever or more kindly or get into a state of nonviolence, but that has nothing whatsoever to do with love.

In this torn desert world there is no love because pleasure and desire play the greatest roles, yet without love your daily life has no meaning. And you cannot have love if there is no beauty. Beauty is not something you see—not a beautiful tree, a beautiful picture, a beautiful building, or a beautiful woman. There is beauty only when your heart and mind know what love it.

Without love and that sense of beauty there is no virtue, and you know very well that, do what you will—improve society, feed the poor—you will only be creating more mischief, for without love there is only ugliness and poverty in your own heart and mind.

But when there is love and beauty, whatever you do is right, whatever you do is in order. If you know how to love, then you can do what you like because it will solve all other problems.

So we reach the point: Can the mind come upon love without discipline, without thought, without enforcement, without any book, any teacher or leader—come upon it as one comes upon a lovely sunset? It seems to me that one thing is absolutely necessary and that is passion without motive—passion that is not the result of some commitment or attachment, passion that is not lust. A man who does not know what passion is will never know love because love can only come into being when there is total self-abandonment.

A mind that is seeking is not a passionate mind and to come upon love without seeking it is the only way to find it—to come upon it unknowingly and not as the result of any effort or experience. Such a love, you will find, is not of time; such a love is both personal and impersonal, is both the one and the many.

Like a flower that has a perfume, you can smell it or pass it by. That flower is for everybody and for the one who takes the trouble to breath it deeply and to look at it with delight. Whether one is very near in the garden or very far away, it is the same to the flower because it is full of that perfume and, therefore, it is sharing with everybody.

Love is something that is new, fresh, alive. It has no yesterday and no tomorrow. It is beyond the turmoil of thought. It is only the innocent mind which knows what love is, and the innocent mind can live in the world, which is not innocent.

To find this extraordinary thing which man has sought endlessly through sacrifice, through worship, through relationship, through sex, through every form of pleasure and pain, is only possible when thought comes to understand itself and comes naturally to an end. Then love has no opposite, then love has no conflict.

You may ask, “If I find such love, what happens to my wife, my children, my family? They must have security.” When you put such a question you have never been outside the field of thought, the field of consciousness. When once you have been outside that field you will never ask such a question because then you will know what love is in which there is no thought and therefore, no time. You may read this mesmerized and enchanted, but actually to go beyond thought and time—which means going beyond sorrow—is to be aware that there is a different dimension called love.

But you don’t know how to come upon this extraordinary fount, so what do you do? If you don’t know what to do, you do nothing, don’t you? Absolutely nothing. Then inwardly you are completely silent. Do you understand what that means? It means you are not seeking, not wanting, not pursuing; there is no center at all. Then there is love.

(Freedom from the Known in Total Freedom –The Essential Krishnamurti p.131 ff.)

The Golden Egg – Hiranyagarbha

The Cosmic Egg

This is what it feels like

To sit in the middle of the Golden Egg

Hiranyagarbha

An energy quantum, miniscule and infinite

Beingness pure like the very first atom

In an intensely tremendous dance around itself with itself

Creating creating creating

Wave upon wave of scintillating something

Sparkling and tingling into the finest depths

Into the innermost of what can be felt

Warm and loving, suffused and penetrating

Deeper and deeper and deeper

Yes, we love ourselves anyway…

Nothing that was matters

We are fresh, washed clean of all impurities all past

Bathing in our own soothing essence

In this endless pool of NOW-ness

Embraced by the radiance dancing

Like fine pink bubbles of pure Heart

Emerging from the Mother Self

Infused with the power of Father Self

Do The Right thing!

Stay Close To Spirit!

Forgive all especially yourself

Leave aside all judgment of people, places and situations

Allow all to be – Let It Be

And It reveals Itself as You and Me

Rest in peace beyond birth and death

Hiranyagarbha, meaning the "golden fetus" or "golden womb", in one hymn of the Rigveda (RV 10.121) is a name for the source of the creation of the Universe. (http://www.newciv.org/nl/newslog.php/_v550/__show_article/_a000550-000048.htm)

The Cosmic Egg

FREE

source: http://www.digitalblasphemy.com

click on Hammock youtube at bottom while reading:

The yearning of humanity to be free

Welling up from our visceral depths

Free of greed free of jealousy free of fear free of need

Free of judgment of ourselves feeling not good enough

Free of the stain of the past free of guilt pain darkness shadow effort

Free of all burdens free of separation loneliness torment vexations secrets

To be light shining pure fresh young innocent open loved and loving freely

http://youtu.be/iuyMFOfXVtw